Honest Scrap Tag
A) First list 10 honest things about yourself - and make it interesting, even if you have to dig deep!B) Pass the award on to 7 bloggers that you feel embody the spirit of the Honest Scrap.
Ok, well, here I go. I know that no one except Lam will read this, but hell, I'm good at following directions, in fact it's almost a compulsion to follow "the rules" and do what is asked of me...and since I don't nearly satisfy my "need to please gene" enough (yeah right), I figured it was time to post here. I mean, seriously, it's only been, what? 4 or so months? LOL
1) I honestly believe that Xanadu is one of the greatest films made of all time. When you break it down, here are the facts:
a) Olivia Newton-John has one of the most amazing and angelic voices ever
b) A dancing and singing, not to mention, roller-skating, Gene Kelly!
c) Amazing special effects from laser beams...this was just after Star Wars came out and the effects were before their time!
d) Roller skating! Need I say more?!?!?
e) Time travel, Gods and Muses all in the same movie...nice.
See, so there are more reasons to LOVE this movie than to loathe it, so watch it (for the record, I just got the commemorative Xanadu DVD collection for Christmas and I can't wait to get the time to watch it, with Nicole...because she NEEDS to know what Xanadu is and what it's all about and there is only one cuss word in it!)!!!
2) I am grossly overweight and I feel like I'm victimized by food. I feel obligated to eat, even when I'm not hungry. It's like there is a time clock in my head that says, it's BREAKFAST, EAT. It's LUNCH, EAT. It's DINNER, EAT. NOW. I eat when I'm sad, happy, because I feel entitled, because I want it, because I don't want it or shouldn't eat it, because I think it will taste good, because I want to try it, because I'm bored, because there's a movie on and because, because, because. I will finish my plate even if I'm full, I will finish my kids' plates as to not to waste. I have a serious problem...and I think it's because the core of my being is unhappy.
3) I have a serious problem with not being liked. I feel like I am never good enough to be someones friend or do enough when I AM their friend.
4) I have faith that there is a God, but it waivers so much that I end up worrying myself that I can't sleep. I ponder it over and over again about how we got here and I start to cry whenever I think about the prospect of there being no God or heaven or way of finding out loved ones after they have passed. I used to keep myself up at night until 5 in the morning thinking about this when I was 9 years old...and I still do, occasionally.
5) I laugh too much at stuff...it makes people think I'm dumb. But believe it or not, I have an IQ of 141 which is higher than average, but I feel dumb around many people in my life. I laugh at a lot of things because I see past the words just spoken; I laugh at the tone, delivery, facial expression and context. I have heard a variety of opinions about this...some people find it refreshing that I laugh so much and think they are natural born comedians around me and some are just flat our annoyed by it. Oh well.
6) I automatically feel that people don't like me when they meet me. That I have to earn their approval of me and that I will never measure up to their expectations of a person. I have always felt that I was on the outside of everything...and that people forget about me, constantly. I am not the one that is always invited to the parties or have friends dropping emails or notes because they were thinking about me, but I am the one they trust to babysit their kids, come to for advice or just listen to their problems. I have often pondered if there is a stamp on my forehead that says "Welcome Mat, wipe your feet here".
7) I think that my husband has fallen out of love with me, but respects me and loves what he thought I once was, that he stays out of obligation. Of course, he denies all of this.
8) I wish I was a more creative and adventurous person. People say that I am, but I think that they don't know me very well if they assume that about me.
9) I am very judgemental. I don't mean to be, but I hold myself to such high standards, but I end up expecting that out of a lot of people too. I need to stop that crap.
10) I have to say that I wish I was more bonded with my kids, other than the basics...food, shelter, clothing and motherly guidance. I feel like I have nothing in common with them and they are these separate entities from me. I think that this stems from the fact that I am utterly and completely under appreciated at home. Even my own husband leaves his crap around for me to clean up...no one cleans up after themselves unless I remind them to. No one does what they are supposed to do, unless I ask them to. I don't do everything for them, but I have to remind them to do everything...they forget to clean their rooms, pick up their shoes, how to take showers, make their beds and this is EVERY day. I am starting to feel like I am the only one that cares and this bothers me. My son doesn't care about school or any effort it takes to succeed. I don't want to raise apathetic children, but it appears as if they maybe innate for them. I am saddened by this.
The following 7 bloggers are tagged to tell their 10 truths:
Beki: Truly one of the most articulate and phenomenal people I have ever met, who's clever opinion of the world and what surrounds her, always impresses me. Not to mention, her amazing talent with anything crafty and love for her children.
Laurie: I feel blessed that I have her in my life, so complex, so amazing, just like a bag of trail mix...it takes a ton of different things to make it all taste good.
Jenni: Someone this amazing makes everything she says interesting to read
Fawn: Because she needs to update her blog and I never hear from her anymore...
Randa: Because I love and adore her, mostly because she gets me, never judges me and always laughs AT me.
Jen: For the love of goodness, update your place! LOL
Kim: With so many kids, you have nothing but admiration for her insight and ability to just love, with so much enthusiasm!
posted by Judi B @ 9:17 AM
8 Comments:
Thank you for dutifully following my instructions!
1. It's like a crime against humanity, but I have never seen Xanadu. Nicole and I might have to discover its greatness together.
2. You are not grossly overweight! You are beautiful inside and out. Maybe you eat too much because your cooking is so dang good! Go Tastefully Simple!
3. Well, I adore you! And you don't even have to babysit my kids. Unless you want to. So, do you? Huh? Huh?
4. God exists and likes that you put so much thought into the matter. But I bet God would like for you to do it during waking hours so you can rest at night because you have an entire day of cleaning up after your family starting the next morning.
5. There's no such thing as laughing too much. You're a keen observer and you just get it. Everyone else is stupid and humorless. Oh, was that judgmental of me?
6. Hey, what about me? I comment on your blog and laugh at your family's antics on Flickr! Hmm...maybe I'm the one w/ the complex here.
7. Men aren't smart enough to play clever mind tricks. ;) He's in love with you.
8. If one person calls it a duck, it might not be a duck. But if ten ppl call it a duck, it's probably a duck. And by duck, I mean person. And by person, I mean a creative and adventurous person. And by creative and adventurous person, I mean YOU.
9. Yeah, me too. I need to stop that crap as well.
10. Your children are very sweet. This is a direct testament to your connection and bonding with them (though that may not be apparent now). Children raised by wolves are not sweet. We need to start a club for under-appreciated housewife/mom and charge a penny for admission. We'd be stinkin' rich. :)
I love you, Judi B.!
Ok.. I did it :p
I did it!
You are not overweight ya big goober! & I think you are so pretty!
I suck at sending people emails to let them know I care, but you know I do! I let you totally stomp my ass at scrabble all the time to prove how much I care about you! ;)
Who thinks you laugh too much? Sheesh let them talk to me, I'm like a freaking hyena! I laugh when I get nervous except when I talk to you, but you usually are busy bringing me out of my pits of self pity and drama!
Chris loves you, love just changes over time. And not like lesser changes either. Deeper, more meaningful.
Kids and husbands can't pick up after themselves. It's an unwritten law. If they did we would feel un-needed and resentful that they took such good care of themselves.
Your children are awesome Judi! It's harder to see it when you are so close to the subject!
I love you lady! I don't know what I'd do without ya!
I am one of Lam's friends and i will start following your blog. I love blogging and reading blogs. You can check mine out if you want to http://www.theriley5.com
Amber
Did it. =]
I like you and I've never even met you AND if I ever get the pleasure, you'd better laugh like hell or I'll be disappointed!!
1. I've never seen Xanadu. Nope... never.
2. You know I'm no dainty thing myself and we have discussed how we have never liked or disliked someone because of their size but have the hardest time likeing ourselves when we are at our larger state.
3. I also have the hardest time accepting the fact that someone just might actually WANT to be my friend. It blows my mind.
4. There is a GOD. Just think.. before there was anything what was there? Some ONE some THING some ENTITIY put us all into motion. Out of all the places in space that we know of WHY are we the only planet that has life? Why? What is so special about us? We are all put here on this earth for a reason.
5. Laughing is good - except at a funeral. I've done that before and it's just not good.
6. Dude, get out of my head!
7. I have to fight the feeling that one day my husband will wake up and see me as I really am... then run like hell is at his heels.
8. I think you are in your own way. It's just that you being as intelligent as you are you won't go flying headfirst into something without first making sure it's a wise decision. Nothing wrong with that.
9. That's one of the biggest blessings we are given... the ability to change.
10. I think that sometimes I'm right there with you. I shudder at the thought at how much damage I've done in my children's lives. Also I often wonder what would happen if I were to fall ill and wasn't able to take care of the house.
P.S. I can't believe you wrote that about me. I feel special!
I LOVE that you are able to be honest about your relationship with food and your children. I wish I could be gutsy enough to do that. This is why I'm so eager for you to continue!
Your turn missy!
The rules are simple. As follows:
6th Picture Meme!
1.Go to your Picture Folder on your computer or wherever you store your pictures.
2.Go to the 6th Folder, then pick the 6th picture in that folder.
3.Post that picture on your blog and the story that goes along with the picture.
4.Tag 6 other peoples that you know or don’t know to do the same thing and leave a comment on their blog or an e-mail letting them know you chose them.
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